Look back or Look Forward?

This morning I woke up very late. It was 03.20.. And I need to go back to Surabaya..

I was in a rush until then I got economic bus that took me to Surabaya.. There was no seat available for me.. So I need to stand up all the way to Surabaya..

when I stand up, I just look back.. I saw the road that my bus already passing through.. I saw the dark behind.. and I saw the lights behind..
Just thinking how my life will be if I just look behind like what I'm doing now..What happen if I'm focusing my self always to look back on my past and just see all the things that just happen behind..and never move my neck to look forward..

If I think about my past, I have so much pain there, but I have so much happiness also..Nothing will change about my past.. my past will always just about my past.. only learning that I can take if I move my neck to look forward, so I can see more possibilities.. and use all the life learning to find better possibilities.. better possibilities to be much more happier.. I know it won't be that easy to get the happiness that we want, but at least we believe there always be happiness for us, and at least we're trying our best to reach it..That's life.. It won't be a life if we don't know what we wanna with our life..and I think that is the art of life, if we struggling for something that we know we have to reach it..